You ruin your life by desensitizing yourself. We are all afraid to say too much, to feel too deeply, to let people know what they mean to us.
Caring is not synonymous with crazy. Expressing to someone how special they are to you will make you vulnerable. There is no denying that.
However, that is nothing to be ashamed of. There is something breathtakingly beautiful in the moments of smaller magic that occur when you strip down and are honest with those who are important to you.
Let that girl know that she inspires you. Tell your mother you love her in front of your friends.
Express, express, express. Open yourself up, do not harden yourself to the world, and be bold in who, and how you love.
There is courage in that.